faerieschylde's Journal

Not good news.
Psyche has cancer. The vet has given me pain meds for her and put her back on the prednisone. It can help with the inflammation of this type of cancer. The prognosis is not at all good. She could be around for a few days or weeks, I just have to keep an eye on her and see when she feels she's ready to go. So far she's maintaining and the vet says I've been doing a good job keeping her as well as she is. So unfortunately unless some amazing miracle appears on the horizon, she won't make her 6th birthday. Thanks for the well wishes. I can still use them and some "virtual hugs" wouldn't go amiss right now either. Thanks for listening/reading.

Current Mood: sad

Well wishing for Psyche
If anyone has any well wishing, white light giving thoughts to send to Psyche they would be appreciated. She's been sick now since March, the asthma turned into a sinus infection and now we seem to have a viral infection run amok. She can't eat so I've been syringe feeding her for I've lost track of how many weeks. The vet is doing everything she can with the limited budget I have. The fear now is that she has Feline Aids or Leukemia. We're waiting path results of a mouth bump most likely tomorrow. She and I have been going to the vets every other day for weeks now to get subcu fluids and she's on both traditional and non traditional treatment. So if anyone would be willing to wish her well... we'd appreciate it. :) Thanks.

Current Mood: worried

Another week

Not too much going on except for still trying to get Psyche back to her old self. She's still stuffy, got a sinus infection on top of the asthma. She's on clavamox,prednisolone and terbutelyne (Sp?). She hasn't been eating or drinking properly so much to her chagrin I've been giving her food and water through a large baby medicine dropper. So hopefully she'll be all better soon, or as all better as asthma can be.

I've been trying to go swimming at least three times a week and my upstairs neighbor and I are trying to walk a couple of times a week. Four times so far this week, but it's not quite over yet. I figure four mile walks and 2 1/2hr swims in a week (still hoping to swim at least one more time) is pretty good for little miss couch potato.

Nice to see sunshine, slightly warmer weather. Now just trying to find the yard! Someday soon I hope.

Current Mood: okay

Should be in bed
I know It's long past my bed time, but I just got back from the emergency vet after taking Psyche for asthma problems. She got diagnosed two weeks ago, and we got to decrease her meds for three whole days before she started wheezing again. So She went back on full meds and today she was so bad she scared me. I found I was shaking so badly when I filled out the form they thought my name was Amelia! ::Shakes her head:: Obviously I was more than a bit stressed out. Spent two hours waiting and talked with a dog mom, ( dog was named Charlie Brown) who turned out he had lyme disease and she was grateful as her Rotty Elmo had dies less than two months back due to congenital kidney failure. So we both kept each other company while we worried about our respective "children" There was also a rat with a possibly broken leg. I give kudos to the Dr and staff for dealing with it all and me the weepy, trembly one.

So wish me luck with my asthmatic kitty. Seems like it's going to be a long haul before we get her completely stable.

Current Mood: exhausted

don't like being sick

But I finally did go to the dr and he diagnosed diverticulits. So I'm on two antibiotics, three times a day for ten days. Had to be on a clear liquid diet for 24hours.. (technically I think I"m still supposed to be on it but.. ugh! I had to have something semi solid, just a poached egg and the dry toast was allowed!) So I"m off to bed and hopefully will be all better soon. night all.

Current Mood: sick

Spring fever

Ever have one of those days? I spent yesterday shoveling. Today I got into my car and drove around. Ended up at my work's parking lot and read for an hour or so then came home. No I want to go outside and run around and around then I want to get all dolled up and go dancing! ::Sighs:: there is no place to go dancing around here though. So I guess I'll just wishful think. :)

Current Mood: crazy

Tattoo

I'm going to do it. :) I've got my appt in June to get my first tattoo. It's being designed for me by a great lady name Jen. I'm nervous and so excited I can't wait. It's a looooooooong time to wait but it's all good. :)

Current Mood: excited

Mondays.: )
Well so far this week is going well. I got to chat with a friend of mine for about 2hours on the phone. She's having a rough time but we got a few giggles in. It was fun. Her daughter complained that we'd been on the phone for "Five Whole Hours!" ::chuckles:: Of course we were.

Work went well, no crazy threats and a rather relaxing day. It was good. :) Now I've watched The View and still have an old debate to watch. Though I've long since voted in our primary... it will be interesting to see who goes all the way to the election in Nov.

:)

Current Mood: relaxed

So glad the week is over

This has been the longest most ........... week I've had for as long as I can remember. I"m so glad it's over. I know it's bad when I come home and drink a winecooler. Computer crashes and crazy patients who ended the week by threatening us. We called hospital security and had them come and hang out in our parking lot just in case they actually came. Thankfully they didn't. But I really don't need to listen to them anymore. I do love my job but that is soooo not what I signed up for!

Now it's snow and ice outside, and it seems like so many things should be, could be done but I can't get the energy to do them. I should go grocery shopping but that's going to wait and I"m going to hope I can get out of my driveway tomorrow. Granted it's supposed to turn to rain, but they aren't always right!

Losing my mind to the winter doldrums. It's my own fault. I don't come here and chat often enough. So blah though I can't quite make myself come more often. Not because I don't want to talk, but I can't get up the energy. So all my fault. :) No one elses. Anyway I guess I needed to rant a bit. If anyone reads this great, it's ok if no one does. Isn't that why we post anyway? I don't know. KK, done babbling for now.

Current Mood: grumpy

Pixie memorial
This is in memory of PIxie-Rune. Born March of 1992 and died April 21, 2007. Fifteen years of fluff,fun and sharp claws.Purrs, flirty tail, bright yellow eyes watching every move, chasing bugs and birds when she could. Rest in peace.

Current Mood: sad

Co-Ed magazine
This is a wish list journal. My cousin Alena is in the CoEd mag Sin issue that is supposed to be out this month. My mom and I have been trying to get a couple of copies but so far no one up here has them. Even in the UNH town of Durham. Silly college people without a CoEd magazine. If anyone should be able to grab a couple of copies I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks so much!

First day
It was my first day at the new job. The people there are wonderful, lots of fun and even though there are many many many new things to learn, I am very sure this was a good move for me. It's a busy place, lots of people coming through and more people who work here than I am used to but I only see them in small amounts as they zoom in and out to get people or drop off paperwork. I think this will be a good thing. :)

New Job
I have a new job starting Sept 6th. It's 2.5 miles from my house! No state tax and a little more money! I'm soooooooooooooo excited! Wish me luck!

Left of Center
I'm sitting her eating my garlic bread and spaghetti and wishing it was just a little cooler, or rather less humid. I'm finding that as much as I thought I was hungry I can't finish the garlic bread and I'm bummed out. I love garlic bread and I can't finish it.. and while I know I can save it and reheat it another night, it's just not the same!

I'm feeling rather restless, antsy and wanting to be somewhere do something but I don't know where or what. Just feel out of sorts. Left of Center as Suzanne Vega sang. I love that song. Have you ever felt that way? Have you heard the song? "If you want me, you can find me, Left of center off of the strip. In the outskirts, in the fringes in the corner out of the grip. When they ask me what am I looking at I always answer nothing much, I think they know that I'm looking at them, I think they think I must be out of touch"

We all are I think to some extent. I'm not sure if any of us are center. I suppose someone has to be center for there to be a left of, but I don't want to be center. Center seems so bland and normal. Left of center seems much more interesting, like it has something to say and do. Center needs to be tall and strong and solemn. Left of center gets to be impish and giggly and make faces where no one can see. At least that's how I see it. That may not be how anyone else sees it and that's ok. Be boring if we all look at things the same way. Ok enough thought ramble. I"m off.

Nice weather
It's so nice to have breathable comfortable weather! I felt like I could make dinner and not melt! A major accomplishment. Tomorrow night I hope it will be just as nice as I have baking to be done. Family is coming up from Virginia and Georgia and I am "the family baker" There must be molasses cookies, as I recall mom wants peanutbutter and Uncle Erne wants oatmeal. I also want to make a chocolate zucchini cake and maybe a coffee cake so I think I'll be in baking heaven/hell for awhile. :)The family only gets together once a year so there are a fair amount of things on the calendar. Mom turns 60 this year and I turned 40 so between us we make 100 years. I think that's really cool. She's all excited and we are having her party at The Carriage House in Rye. She's also excited that she got a new job, more money and better bene's. :) Happy mom!

I'm thinking about looking around myself. I'm finding I have very little patience with our patients. And almost none with a few of the dr's and our supervisor. I'm thinking hard but haven't come to any firm conclusions yet.

My room mate started his new job today at Cumbies. So finally we are both employed and that feels really good. Even if he hasn't seen a pay check yet. :)
Just having a fairly good night tonight. It's all good. :)

Another hot summer day. I much prefer cooler weather, ever winter I maintain I only want it 75 and not humid so that I feel I can legitimately complain! Hot and muggy are not my happy places.

If things continue as they are I may be moving in a few months, depending on how quickly our house would sell. I'm hoping not but I have no clue what will happen when the month ends in a few days. If things go well, we can stay, if they don't change, the house goes on the market in August. So wish me luck.

Work is going all right. Mom keeps telling me I should think about changing but I'd rather wait and see what happens with the house. If we sell the house I should see where I end up before doing a job shift. So a lot is riding on the next few months. Things always work out the way they are supposed to, I just wish I knew what that was.
I'll just wait and see what happens next.

Another hot day though not as muggy. I'm getting tired of jelly and bread though. :) Not that it's bad but feeling like cooking is good too. And fruits and vegies aren't too shabby either. :) Though fresh isn't in the budget and too darn hot to cook veggies so bread and jelly.

So I'm just posting and then heading off to a book and bed. Looking forward the Harry Potter this weekend and if anyone has read it DO NOT TELL ME HOW IT ENDS! ::curtsies:: thank you. ::Grins::

Tuesday morning
I now have a Beatles song stuck in my head. ::wrinkles her nose:: Granted I like the song but still!

I tried to go to the lake on Saturday. I packed a great picnic lunch, had blanket and bathing suit and books and crochet and notebook and pen and headed the almost hour drive north to Lake Winnepesaukee. I got to the park entrance and the beach was closed to swimming due to high levels of bacteria. ::Sighs:: So I turned around, found a "scenic view" parked and finished one of the books I'd brought then ended up at my mom's for the rest of the weekend. I had a good time, still rather bummed about not getting to go swimming at the lake. Not too much I could do about it though.

Work is going well. Room mate has wandered to Dover and back filling out applications. Gods let the phone ring with a job for him because we need it. Desperately.

Ok that's it for the morning. It's going to be hot, but we'll survive.

Running away
Today I'm running away. I've realised that I have had no me time since April and I find myself getting more tense and agitated and just plain frustrated with everything. So I'm packing a bag and heading to the lake for the day. A few books, some crochet, a blanket and some food should make for a good day I hope. Ellacoya state park here I come. :)